Hey. It's kinda funnyhow I'll meet you each day. Be it morning, afternoon, evening; Or even during times when we wait for the bus. But did you know that each moment is unspeakable?
You weren't here nor there. You weren't up or down. You're just... you.
I was never here or there. I'm never up or down. I'm just... pathetic.
At first glance, you made me quiver. That was all it takes to lure my breath away. That was all it takes to steal my lowly life.
It pounded so hard, That the cars don't seem to move. That the birds don't seem to sing. And the people don't seem to talk.
A moment, embraced with nothing but desire. To some, it may be nothing. To others, it would mean everything.
It felt so real. So true. Even before you know it, Poof.
But yet, when reality strikes hard, you begin to question why. Porqué.
Talk time? Presence? Show-off? Something to fill the spaces?
Happiness?
Yea. Happiness. Such a lie. Misery lies behind each obstacle. Happiness is the reward for overcoming it. Sadly, when it comes in large, Very little can overcome it.
I've spent 16 years of my life finding out. It took 3 years to somehow understand. It'll take the rest of my life to regret.
::I'll never forgive you too::
And it would not have ended, If all was meant to be true.
It would not be a lie, If it was meant to be true.
Certainly, things would be better, If none of these were true.
This is what I learnt from my 3 hr session with my psychiatrist.
1) Shit happens. Deal with it. 2) You gain some, you lose some. 3) Confidence and high self-esteem is the key to achieving all in life. 4) Erh... Whatever. 5) Right back at you. 6) Take your time. Take your time. 7) It takes two hands to clap. It takes one hand to slap. 8) Be yourself. 9) Talk more. 10) Fuck what they think.
1) At what age do you wish to marry? Anytime I finish my Uni (if I get) and have a stable job. Should be around 27-30.
2)What i want the most now? The medals for Saturday's competition.
3) Who is the person you trust the most? No one in particular. If you trust a person too much, you might never know when you'll get bitten in the ass. 4) Do you think you have enough confidence? Since the question does not state what, I'll just shit my way through.
Confidence in studies: Low. Confidence in friends: Neutral. Confidence in CCA: Neutral - High Confidence in self: Not sure really. Confidence in love: Haha. Yea right.
5) If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be? The day that I have the guts to actually do it. Either that or the dream of finding a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.
6) Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain? The question makes it sound like rainbows are magical.
7) What are you afraid to lose the most now? My handphone. After not using it for half a day, I realise I can't live without it. And ouh... you.
8) Do you believe in eternity love? If a love for someone is pure enough, yes. But that's in the movies. In real life, if it happens.... Oh wait. It doesn't. 9) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? Being a guy, there's this stupid rule that I have to. If I have to confess, it'll be from playing truth or dare. Other than that, it'll not be known until the girl confesses to me.
YES. The girl confess. There are reasons why.
10) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you. She's fun to talk too. She's helpful all the time. And she trusts her friends. Yes. You do.
11) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half? No matter what they say, looks ALWAYS matters. Yes people, ALWAYS. The "looks does not matter" is just shit that people made up. Just to make themselves LOOK GOOD. SEE! Looks does matter. It's just whether it's small or large extent.
Anyway, i'll go for moderate looks, kind at heart, bold and most importantly, she has to agree that it is okay if we have conflicting ideas or theories. And she'll love to share and debate, but no hard feelings whatsoever.
Usually couples break up with the reason that they have little in common. If we need to be in common, might as well I date myself.
12) What type of person do you hate most? Those who whine about how bad their life is all the time. If people do it at times, it is okay.
But if you do stupid stuff just because life sucks, Well, you are being a big dumbass. That's not being sensitive or showing your dark side. That's just trying to attract attention and being a punkass jerk.
Haha.
13) Do you cherish every single friendship of yours? Define friendship.
14) Do you believe in God? Without a doubt in my heart.
15) What do you think is the most important thing in your life? Right now, it's my bed. Other than that, it'll have to be health. My friend's, family's or acquaintance's.
Nothing is worse than seeing someone you know fighting for his/her life, and all you can do is stand and pray, not knowing if he/she will ever make it.
16) Do you find it is a need for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Sometimes there are things that you wanna talk about, but not with your friends (guys). Coz they'll tend to make stupid comments.
So yea, it'll be nice to have one. But a relationship should lessen someone's burden, not increase. 17) At this point of time, would you rather be a heart breaker or a heartbroken? I'll be the one who mends the broken hearts of others.
18) What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friend's eyes? Someone different and someone who at least taught them something valuable that can be used in life.
19) Describe the person who tagged you in 6 words. She loves to listen very attentively.
20) The place you want to go the most with your loved ones? Some place where time doesn't matter, and stress is non-existant.
Tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. I don't have 8, so just the people who goes to my blog.
Nad the Psychic Catwoman. Azrul. Liang Ting. Faat. Fad. (I don't know if you're here) Eadelin.
