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Saturday, September 30, 2006

Aurification

Have been reading a lot lately.
Just to fill my mind up.
I need to start concentrating on other things.

I can't believe you're gone.
Well, at least you are happy and smiling.
That's all that matters to me, I guess.

I can't be selfish. I can't be a taker.
It has to be both ways to work nicely.

They told me to tell her how i feel.
I know i'll be shattered into million pieces.
I'm better off not try my luck.
Since this past few days my luck's been down.

Im turning into stone.

Picture of Fizie's mind at 6:14 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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Thursday, September 28, 2006

It's Time

Do you bury me when I'm gone?
Do you teach me while I'm here?
Just as soon as i belong,
Then it's time i disappear

Metallica - I Disappear

It's strange isn't it?

Everytime you meet someone new,
You have to leave. Forever.

Sometimes I feel like it's not worthwhile.
Spending time and energy, which is all wasted.

Usually, people have to leave as they have no choice.
But this time, I choose to leave. It's a wild decision.

But look at it this way. It's impossible to work out.
Time and again I've been lifted up into the skies,
Only to know that it was just to crush me further.

If you're with me now, you can hear it shattering.
If you're with me now, you can see the tears.
If you're with me now, you can feel it break.

"Love is a decision.
Its a reflection of how you honour the one you love.
Its a reflection of the things we sacrificed.
Just to be with that special someone for a lifetime."

I guessed its all gone down the drain.
May be it's time I disappear.

Imagine the burden that's lifted.
Imagine the peace in mind.
Imagine the smile.

I hope you'll find the happiness you've been seeking.
I hope you'll find the life you've been wanting.
I hope you'll find the reasons for life.





In loving memory, --,

4th January 2006 - 29th September 2006

Picture of Fizie's mind at 5:18 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Let You Go - Ashley Parker Angel

Broken promises
But you don't really mind
It's not the first time
And you know it, don't you now

Tell me why it is you only smile inside
But when you break me into nothing
Don't you know

It's not like I haven't tried
Over and over again
Stupid fights
Wrong or right
Goodbye...

I Remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna but I gotta let you go

You're the one mistake
I really didn't mind
So beautiful, unmercifully
Took me down

Too little and too late
So now I know your kind
You fake it easy, just to please me
Don't you know

It's not like we haven't tried
Over and over again
Sleepless nights wrong or right
Goodbye...

I Remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna but I gotta let you go
I gotta let u go...
It's you...
Theres nothing I can do

I remember when you came with me that night
You said forever
You said forever
You said forever

Here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna but I gotta
Let U Go

I Remember when you came with me that night
You said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna but I gotta let you go

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Thnx for all you've done for me.
I really appreciate it all.
Sorry I have to let it go.

Picture of Fizie's mind at 8:32 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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Count Your Good Blessings

Life sometimes pulls you down.
Sometimes hard, Sometimes soft.

But no matter what it is,
I want you to learn this.

I got it from a wise teacher of mine.
Others might find it useless,
But I'm sure to us, it'll mean a lot.

She said, "Count Your Good Blessings."

I want you to get this in your mind always k?

When your parents seems to be unreasonable,
Count Your Good Blessings that you have parents.

When your studies seems to go nowhere,
Count Your Good Blessings that you are going to school.

When you seem to fail in what you are pursuing,
Count Your Good Blessings that you'll have another chance.

There are a lot more that you can count.
Whenever you are feeling down,
Count Your Good Blessings ok?

I hope you'll find a whole new reason to believe.

Picture of Fizie's mind at 8:13 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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Monday, September 25, 2006

October Baby

Got this from an email.
Somehow, when i reflect it,
seems very true....

OCTOBER BABY

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to takes things at the center. Inner and physical
beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does
not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND
sexiest of them all.

Except for the "Does not care to control emotions."
Ohwell...

Picture of Fizie's mind at 8:33 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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Friday, September 22, 2006

In loving memory - Alter Bridge

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone and
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I never knew what it was to be alone....no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting

But now I come home
And I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know
You're a part of me
And its your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of the one that was so true
You were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I never knew what it was to be alone....no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting

But now I come home
And its not the same no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I'm glad He set you free from sorrow
But I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you'll be here
With me still

All you did you did with feeling
And you always found a meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

Picture of Fizie's mind at 8:04 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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Monday, September 18, 2006

Hate Me - Blue October

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space

Hate me today,
Hate me tomorrow,
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
And in a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars with myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then fell down yelling “make it go away!”
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “how can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

Picture of Fizie's mind at 9:45 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Part 2.

So many things happening at once.
Its hard to curb myself.

Temper is something I learnt to control.
Since young. I still remember what my teacher said.

"Hafiz, you need to learn how to control your temper!"

Since then, I have tried to keep all emotions in.
That's why I'm labelled heartless, emotionless.
I'm not. I just don't show it. Its a normal condition.

"Type D individuals tend to experience negative emotions like hostility, anxiety, anger, depressed mood, tension, and a negative view of themselves. They are likely to be constantly on alert for signs of impending trouble and to overreact to stressful events. An equally important factor in the type D personality is the inability to express these emotions, which leads to feeling tense, insecure, and uncomfortable in social situations."

From Yahoo web.

"D" type. That's me.
Understand?

Picture of Fizie's mind at 6:42 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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Friday, September 08, 2006

Owe.

If you are reading this, hear me out.

I know you can't forgive.
Or can't be bothered.

Either ways, its hard for me.

I've been living with guilt almost
my whole life, ever since I can remember.

I've been trying to make things better.
For others and for myself.
But this is hard. Hardest in fact.

The truth. I really can't sleep every night.
I keeps playing all over in my head. Loops.
Its tearing me apart. Slowly.

I don't know how much longer I'll last.
Before I crack. But till then, I'll never have
the guts to meet you. Or talk to you.

Its not that I'm not a man.
I just don't want things to get any worse.

I'm bad with words. Just leave me a sign.

Picture of Fizie's mind at 10:53 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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Thursday, September 07, 2006

Hidden.

Why didn't you tell me about it?
Why did you keep it in the dark?

I'm sorry. I didn't know about it.
It wasn't your fault.
You didn't have anything to do with it.

I didn't know why they did that.

Correction.
I didn't know why she did that.

I guess I owe you an explaination.
A long explaination.

I truly regret all that had happened.
I guess she just wanted to find a prey.

And you seemed to be the easiest.

If you had told me earlier,
I would have stopped it all.
I would have clarified everything.
I would have prevented it.

I may not be a superhuman.
But I would have shut them up.
Shut her up. Once and for all.

I'm very sorry you had to go through all that.
But please, if they ever do those again, tell me.

Picture of Fizie's mind at 3:02 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Jokes.

There was a man who was in a horrible accident and injured. But the only permanent damage he suffered was the amputation of both of his ears. As a result of this unusual handicap, he was very self-conscious about having no ears.

Because of the accident, he received a large sum of money from the insurance company. It was always his dream to own his own business, so he decided he now had the means to own a business. He went out and purchased a small but expanding computer firm. However, he realized that he had no business knowledge at all, so he decided that he would have to hire someone to run the business. He picked out three top candidates and interviewed each of them. The first interview went really well. He liked the guy. His last question for this candidate was, "Do you notice anything unusual about me?"

The guy said, "Now that you mention it, you have no ears." The man got really upset and threw the guy out.

The second interview went even better than the first. This candidate was much better. Again, to conclude the interview, the man asked the same question again, "Do you notice anything unusual about me?"

This guy also noticed, "Yes, you have no ears." The man was really upset again, and threw the second candidate out.

Then he had the third interview. The third candidate was even better than the second, the best out of all of them. Almost certain that he wanted to hire this guy, the man once again asked, "Do you notice anything unusual about me?"

The guy replied "Yeah, you're wearing contact lenses."

Surprised, the asked, "Wow! That's quite perceptive of you! How could you tell?"

The guy burst out laughing and said, "Well, You can't wear glasses if you don't have any ears!"

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A blonde and brunette were watching the 6 o'clock news. The news was about a man about ready to jump off a bridge.

The brunette turns to the blonde and says, " I bet you $50 the man is going to jump."The blonde replies, "Okay you're on." Sure enough, the man jumps, and the blonde gives the brunette $50.

The brunette says, "I can't accept this money. I watched the 5 o'clock news and saw the man jump then." "No, you have to take it," says the blonde.

"I watched the 5 o'clock news too, but I didn't think he would do it again."

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A blonde decides to try horseback riding even though she has had no lessons or prior experience. She mounts the horse unassisted, and the horse immediately springs into motion. It gallops along at a steady and rhythmic pace, but the blonde begins to slip from the saddle.

In terror, she grabs for the horse's mane but cannot get a firm grip. She tries to throw her arms around the horse's neck, but she slides down the side of the horse anyway. The horse gallops along, seemingly impervious to its slipping rider.

Finally, giving up her frail grip, she leaps away from the horse to try and throw herself to safety. Unfortunately, her foot has become entangled in the stirrup, and she is now at the mercy of the horse's pounding hooves as her head is struck against the ground again and again. As her head is battered against the ground, she is mere moments away from unconsciousness when ... the Wal-Mart manager runs over to shut off the horse.

Picture of Fizie's mind at 9:34 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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Monday, September 04, 2006

Yo Momma

Yo mama so stupid she tried to put M&M's in alphabetical

Yo mama so stupid it took her 2 hours to watch 60 minutes

Yo mama so fat i had to take two trains and a bus just to get on her good side

Yo momma so fat she got run over and said "Who threw that rock?"

Yo mama is so fat every time she turns around it's her birthday.

Yo mamma's so hairy, bigfoot took pictures of her!

Yo momma so fat, when she walks past the TV, I missed the whole season of OC!

Yo mama is so ugly that she stuck her head out the window,and got arrested for disturbing the peace.

Yo mama so fat you can hit her stomach and ride the waves!

Picture of Fizie's mind at 9:15 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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Sunday, September 03, 2006

Painful

After 4 years, surprising.
After 4 years, disappointing.

4 years is not a short amount of time.
4 years does not pass by in a blink of an eye.

Since when had you been a friend?
Since when had you started to know me?

Don't try to tell me that you know.
Don't try to tell me that you understand.

And please, don't call me your friend.

Friends support one another, not break them apart.
Friends learn to understand, not change.
Friends do not object, they advice.
Friends do not treat friends as sidekicks.

They treat each other as partners.

Partners in life.

If you have not fitted into the criteria,
then you are not a friend to me.

And yup, I learnt not to be friends with anyone.
I learnt not to trust my friends.
They hurt you more than love.

Picture of Fizie's mind at 2:28 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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The Calling -Wherever You Will Go

So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own


CHORUS
If I could, then I would
I'd go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go


And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you


CHORUS


Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time


CHORUS


If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go

I promise. Trust me.

Picture of Fizie's mind at 2:11 pm .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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Friday, September 01, 2006

Finch - Letters to You

Can't you see
That I wanna be
There with open arms
It's empty tonight
And I'm all alone
Get me through this one

Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to
So far away?

I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so

I'm writing again
These letters to you
Aren't much I know
But I'm not sleeping and
You're not here
The thought stops my heart

Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to
So far away?

No more looking,
I've found home

I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so

I've gone away

Its for you.

Picture of Fizie's mind at 9:28 am .

Love is JUST an expression of Lies and Illusion.

Falling in love is like falling for drugs.

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