i wanted to make up for it. i wanted us to get back together. i took days and nights thinking abt it. almost 2 weeks now, and i thought i was ready. when i came upon the most excruciating news.
____________________________________ "be strong.. stop contacting him..he's the one who dumps me.. it prove that he doesnt want me.. so why the hell am i wasting my tym msging?? it doesnt mean tt if i msg him, he's going to get back with me. never..ever.. talkin to him also doesnt make my situation better.. it onlie made it worst.. yesh..i may wan to hear his voice coz i misses him so much.. but put myself to his shoes.. i dun think i wanna hear my voice.. so let's not provoke him..
he say he got problems to deal with.. that's why he cant continue wit the relationship.. haha.. yeah rite.. other couples..their problems are far more worst than his situation.. and they still can continue.. juz say lah.. u dun wanna commit to relationship..no commitment.. i will understand..
so for now, i will not disturb.. if he wanna talk to me, he will contact me himself.. i dun wanna b a burden in his life.. not anymore..
all im saying here is not tt i dun love him anymore or wad.. yes, i love him and still are.. but i dun wanna b some weak stupid girls who realli stick to the guy even after they are dump by them.. come on.. get a life man.. it's juz tt.. i'll still be here.. invisible.. if he is ready for me, den i'll be there.. for now.. all i am to him.. is juz a passing shadow.. and alwaes will " ____________________________________ My life drained out of me. Every inch of life. Lost everything.
To make things worse, Mentally challenged. Physically weak.
Spilt minds. Me and Conscience.
Fatigued body. Sudden Shocks.
I've kept it a secret. Till now, no one will understand.
No one will. No one ever. I dun weep. I dun cry. But today is an exception.
Im sory i've hurt you. Im sory i took so long. Im sory for shaping you this way. Im sory. Well, sory means nothing to you anyway.
