I know I can't make things right. It's hard for me to learn what someone had done, and live up to the legacy. Especially what he had done. It's near impossible for me. Coz' there are things in my life that I've done and I'm not proud of, and it had all pulled me down. Do you know that each night, when I'm having a moment, I'll be wondering about this?
It has been hard for you. Having skills beyond your control, and they all seem to kill you slowly inside. The safe haven you used to have is no longer there, and you've been telling yourself that you do not need one. Guess what? You do need one. Badly. You cannot just live life the same way after what happened in the haven. That's the reason why everything seems to be falling apart now.
It has fall apart for me when I woke up from a nightmare I created. I can't believe I used to plot things that way. I guess God has punished me accordingly and gave me a broken hope to live on as well. Just to experience what I put them through. But being all so forgiving, God has also gave me another chance to make up for the mistakes. After seeing you, I don't know whether I'm in for the mission of objectives, or mission of the heart. That, I'll determine on my own.
Nonetheless, I'll need you to live life simple from now on. Till I make up my mind on what I should pursue. It'll determine whether we'll succeed, or we'll fail.
